Think

It's hard to please everybody but its even harder to please yourself, especially when you don't know who you are, what you want, and where you're going.I want to find peace when i'm confusedI want to have hope when i'm let downI want to clean up the mess I madeAnd tie up any loose ends. But where do I begin? And how?

MO @ MO

Malaysian Open at Mandarin Oriental(Just a warning: this is a departure from my rather abstract posts of late)Just by luck I was shifted from the info n booth department (blah) to the Hotel and hospitality department (^.^)/It’s not that tiring, we get quite a few perks. Comfortable environment (second home remember :P) and the opportunity to observe how the tennis players interact and stuff. Some of the things they do are just hilarious. hard to explain why, but they just are. It’s a good hard look behind the scenes. There weren’t that many fans, ...

My Drug Buddy

Drink it in, that bitter pillYou’re running short on drugsThe grey is lonely, the black is stillAnd Murphy cries for hugsA game of chicken between us bothWho’ll be the first to blink?You always win, most of the timeBut that’s just what you thinkI’ll corner you and ask you whyI’ll burn you with these sweetsAnd though you try and try and tryYou’ll end up in defeatThe battle wages, forth and onIt carves in me a holeBut both our silence fills the voidThat grows within our soulsOne day we’ll tire, or else give upThen each to their own wayAnd in regret ...

Awake in Dreaming

I awake, into my dreamI climb out into the nostalgic sunlight, golden and warm on my skinThis is a hidden memory, one from the futureThe red walls, serene and academicThe faint chatter of hungry minds in the faraway distanceI know this place, yet I’ve never been hereThis is yours, your past and I am intruding, but its not my choiceAnd as everyone flows around me, I walk in a dazeTwo teams are playing, a ball bouncing up and down and up,Impossibly, on a hill, and one team is in blue, I rememberI wander on into a parking lot, empty and bare and sud ...

The Desert Wish

Is there anything more beautiful that a star spangled sky on a cool cloudless night?A longing for the open emptiness that a Desert posessesThe freedom from the ropes and ties of mundane lifePurity of minds and thought, concentration on what is essentialFocus of energy to building up your soulConnection with yourself, with Nature, and with The AlmightyTo hear your heart, as loud and clear as a hidden streamTo be in tune with the land, the creatures, the air, wind and sunTo submit yourself wholly to GodIs there a dream more wonderful than thisor on ...

Stranger

Its the eyes that call you in,But no matter how hard you try,You can never remember the color that they show,Only the holdof their penetrating gaze

New Semester

New semester is supposed to bring new hope, the brightness of your whole future ahead of you, a fresh page and a new leaf. Determination to make today better than yesterday, this semester, better than the last. But panic seizes up inside of me. I realize I'm now a third year student, a final year student, one that will, insha'Allah, be a graduate by this time next year. I'm not ready for this. After all, what do I know? I'm suddenly a senior that needs to dish out advice to my juniors if they come asking. I'm supposed to have a degree of surety i ...

Food for thought

Today I joined my friends Nadiah and Ilham as volunteer tour guides for Masjid Negara, under the Islamic Outreach program. It was my first time and I was really just supposed to observe how my friend did it and what she said. But as it turned out, Masjid Negara was swarmed with tourists that day and there weren’t enough volunteers around. So Ilham and I decided to give it a shot, even though at first you could tell from our faces we were terrified! The first couple we approached was this Indian couple, who weren’t Muslims, but they still sat down ...

What I’ve been up to lately

Well, most recently I went on a long overdue family vacation, but not anywhere far away. We were planning on going to either Penang or Terengganu, but the hotels in Penang were fully booked and the one in Terengganu was not available. So in the end we drove a little bit down south, to port Dickson. It should’ve taken an hour and a half but my dad took a really weird route through PJ/Kelana Kaya/KL making a huge loop before eventually joining the highway. Our hotel was nice, if you can call it that. I mean, the room part was nice, but the bathroom ...

Pumpkin pie, anyone?

Imagine you have a small, and I mean really small, piece of your favourite pie. And you have so many people to share it with. First there’s your family, after all, blood runs thicker than water right? And you have an obligation to your family that you sometimes ignore but it exists nonetheless. they made the pie, so they should get the biggest piece, right?Then there’s your longtime friends, yeah, the ones who have been with you through the years through thick and thin and understand each other’s limitations, faults and weaknesses and accept you ...

The Basis of a good semester is..

23 awesome group mates, happy times, selamba dan rileks, TR10 the isolated little room away from the hectic-ness of the elevator alley, constant flow of visitors due to our open door policy and superb printing services, determination, hard work, a degree of oblivion, a super messy office floor, a rainbow of personalities..All add up to a winning team! Go Basis!!Thanks for the great memories! Missing all of you already huhu..Basis - The Journey

Fragments of a distracted mind

multi disciplinary project this semester.lost.yeah, i remember the other reasons I wanted to take AQS1301 now and not then.----Maybe its the warmer climateTell me if I'm going crazyBut everything you said amazed meSeems to easy on the ear toBe something I should adhere to----played squash again today. wasn't as tiring as the first time. another item to add to my long wishlist - a squash racquet.----plucking flowers. plucking flower petals.Up, down, higher higher, and falling, faster, deeper, and landing hardera cat chasing its tail, while pawing ...

When is a hint really a HINT?Disregard the date I wrote/drew this, because it applies all the time, no?

Recapitulation

My previous post wasn’t entirely accurate. Some things just can’t be put into words, or at least, I don’t know how. And I realized that happiness is much harder to describe than sadness! I want to wax lyrical about something but it would never be enough, never perfectly capture what I’m feeling. And that’s why this blog has been relatively barren, except for the odd poetry here n there.That’s another thing. When structured words and paragraphs won’t do, I resort to abstracting my emotions through a jumble of amateur verses. Because in poetry, the ...

The Pursuit of Happiness

You wake up in the morning, or at whatever time you do,And stumble out of bed wondering what the day will bring to you.”I will survive!” you sing aloud, as you check up on your peers,The snippets of their life used to muffle all your fearsYou've nothing better to do so you wait around all day,But "I can't expect everyone to be as pathetic as me," you sayYou try not to be a burden, and try your best to let them be,But all those things unspoken just heighten your anxietyYour paranoia gets the best of you, "of course they're running away!""But I do ...

Too little, too much

I haven't written anything in here for a really long time. I try to blame busyness, but that’s just an excuse. Its not that I don't have anything to say, it’s that, I have too much to say and I don’t know where to start and what to write.Sometimes, I feel like, what's the point in me writing all this? This isn't an educational blog; people who actually read it don't go away holding a precious piece of knowledge of some new found understanding of life. I told this to a friend, and he asked me what was the reason I wrote in the first place.That got ...

honesty

is holding back something personal you've never told anyone considered a lie?even if you're not sure?

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By the very talented Meon, love needs no reason,love needs no rhymewhat love really needs,is to be shown all the timethough patience may just be passion tameddon’t let your passion be held or restrainedcos passion hidden is passion withdrawnedlet passion be free lest passion’d scorned